New Year in Neverland

2012 was an interesting year for me. I graduated college, interned in San Francisco, and got rid of all the toxic people in my life.  I learned a lot about myself, and at the same time, realized I have a lot to learn. I kept myself busy up until the end, and now for the first time in my life, I have nothing set for the new year. School has consumed my whole life up until this point and I've always thought that freedom from school is what I've always wanted. However, I'm still struggling to find my freedom in the real world, as I'm desperately clinging to the juvenile question of "What do you want to be when you grow up."

But the truth is, I don't think I'll ever grow up. Of course I'll have more responsibilities to deal with and I'm certain I'll handle them maturely, but I won't grow up. Growing up is like letting one's youth go and I don't think I'll ever be ready to leave my youth. If there's anything I've come to learn about myself, it's that I struggle to find happiness. I need to savor the happiness in my life and not sacrifice it for anything. Letting go of my youth and trading it for a suit wearing, office working, corporate illusion of an adult would break my soul, no matter how much  success may come with that. 

God only know what's in store for me this year. 2012 left me with a better sense of knowing who I am and what I want out of life. I may not know exactly what I want to be doing in terms of a career, but I'm not afraid anymore. I understand the value of happiness, and won't settle for anything less than what I deserve. 

My wish for 2013 is simply to for myself, friends, and family to be happy, however that may come about.

After all this "I don't think I'll ever grow up talk", I think it's time for me to go watch Peter Pan and bask in the glory of my self proclaimed eternal youth and I suggest you all do the same.

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And while I'm on it, some of my resolutions for 2013 are:

1) Find a job I enjoy

2) Get more organized

3) Go on more scandalous adventures

4) Wear more accessories (gotta relate it back to fashion)

5) Execute my creativity in innovative ways/disover new things rather than simply being stuck circling around the same interests

6) Take more risks

7) And of course, update this blog more

What are your new years resolutions?